I haven’t written in 2 weeks. At first, I was mad at myself. It takes me 10 minutes to sit down and write a days journal. Then, I was thinking, “Oh well, no one cares anyway.” That made me depressed and wanting to write even less.
I am not gonna lie. It has been a busy 2 weeks and I have been going from the time I wake up until I sit down on the couch in the evening after the kids are in bed. I usually fall asleep within 30 minutes and the last thing I am thinking about is opening my computer to write about my day.
But I realized that I need to write my blessings and here is why:
- It keeps me balanced. – Since I tend to lean towards negativity or as I like to call it “I am a Realist,” I can quickly fall into a depressive state and have negative thoughts. I don’t like to be there in that part of my mind. That places keeps me from doing what I love and being who I am. It is the place where my “friend” in middle school told me I wasn’t good enough to be a cheerleader so I didn’t try out. I didn’t have friends that lifted me up back then. Those people are my inner voices now and I fight very hard not to be in that part of my mind.
- It keeps my mood positive. – I read once or maybe a few times that when you write down your blessings or what you are grateful for it helps to lift your mood. I have done this over the years and it truly does work. I am definitely more depressed when I don’t do it.
- It reminds me to look for the good in each day. – Let’s face it some days are just hard. I want to just go back to bed and wake up the next day and all be well again. But I can’t do that and it is not a good lesson for the kiddos, either.
- It keeps me motivated. – When I write down my blessings, I want to continue to look for more. Not always an easy task but I am no longer settling for “It is what it is.”
- I see beauty in mundane. – When I stop and look at the world around me, I am awestruck. All the different animals that live in my yard. How they interact with one another. The blooming flowers and all the amazing things God created.
- I see my limits. – I was not made to go go go. I need a lot of down time and I am well aware of my needs. I need more daily downtime than the average human to feel good.
- It keeps me in the IDGAF mindset. – I am perfectly happy walking around in my “FWOT” t-shirt or my “But First Gangster Rap” t-shirt. I will sometimes say a cuss word or two or more if you ask my walking buddy. I am sarcastic and I can sometimes take joking too far. I don’t have a lot of empathy (most would say none). But I will love you with all my heart and I am there if you need anything. I will always give you a honest answer. And my door is always open (no, seriously it is always open, hubby hates it). When I am here in this mindset, I am at my best.
I also learned is I can’t do this everyday. It becomes a burden and not a blessing. As summer approaches and life slows a bit, my goal will be to write 3-4 times a week.
As you can see from the picture above, we had a fine night last weekend. We took Ryan to a Monster Truck show for his Easter present this year. He really liked it despite the rain.
Until another day…